How things can change in life so quickly

Well, since the last time I wrote a blog on here things have changed dramatically.
I can safely use this blog for reasons of catharsis as no one is following it apart from my wife. I dont think she uses this any more so I sincerely doubt she can read it.

I'm now at a stage whereby i'm losing the weight that I so long desired to lose. It initally started for a few reasons.
1. I saw my dad ill in a hospital and was scared.
2. I wanted to set an example to him how you can change your life.
3. I wanted to lose the weight for self respect and my own health.
4. I didn't want to put my wife through what I was feeling at the time with my dad.

There are other reasons as well but these were the main ones and really motivated me to change my life.
So, it appears that life has changed in positive ways. I'm now around 3 stone lighter than I was when I first started this journey; thats something I could never imagine happening before.
I'm fitter and more active and feel physically better than I have in years.

I guess though what life gives you in one way it takes away from you in another. In this case it has taken so much more than I can ever had imagined.
It looks like i'm about to lose the love of my life. My wife and I seperated over 3 weeks ago (feels much much longer) and we're going to meet up tomorrow.
I really don't think she's going to change her mind either about what she wants to do. Part of me thinks that she will and come home and this is beyond belief in how happy this will make me to get another chance with her.
We can be so happy together as we were in the past. It seems sad really and also ironic that we are somewhat a victim of our success. Well, at least I believe I was.
I thought my marriage was as strong as anything in the world. I sat on my hands, rested on my laurels, sat back and bathed in how successful I was in getting the girl of my dreams.
"How great is this, i've won!"
What i didn't realise is that the race carries on. You cannot sit on happiness and expect it not to slip from underneath you. You do have to enjoy it but you cannot EVER take it for granted.
I did and now i'm paying dearly for this mistake.
Why didn't i make this mistake earlier in my life. What a fool i've been to think that I could ever take this thing for granted.

Now, on the eve of my meeting up with my wife to chat about things, i feel like i'm going to lose her forever. This makes me sad beyond belief.....

more later